personal thoughts

this is probably my most "personal" blog in a while, but i had a few things on my mind..

-the worst thing about S.A.D. (seasonal affective disorder) is that in fall, you know youll start the cycle all over again, and you get ready for 5 months of hell.
-it's so touching how they call it "SAD"
-it frightens and saddens me that im not close at all with my family, and thats why i have such terrible social skills, but i still really wanna move out (at the same time i dont, for financial reasons)
-you can order all the atomic/subatomic/antiatomic particle plushies from particle zoo (i think the dark matter's pretty cute, but shipping would be through the roof cause its so heavy!)
-i geeeettt paiiiiiid this fri!
-im starting back up netflix. and simultaneously getting the blockbuster 2-week trial (for the 3-at-a-time plan! and canceling, of course.. muahaha!)
-reading articles like this, about kids with bipolar disorder just adds another reason to the list of why i never want to have kids.
-and also makes me think about the over-diagnosing of mood disorders in children (and pill culture in general)
-the more i think about evolution, the more it seems like we cant possibly be "alone"- life is the norm, not the exception.